May 5, 2010 - Cards

It was a bit wierd when I had to clear our my stuff. Mom told me that i should throw away everything that i don't use anymore, or nothing that would benefit me in the future.

So i went through and wow, i realized so many of these things are forgotten. It's like going to through a box of old stuff and remembering your childhood. Cept this is more depressing.. because things have to be thrown out.

There assignments, course booklets, textbooks, tests, and even old black and white photograph paper (which i should donate to my high school). And then i hit a huge part of my childhood (mmm 3-4 years?).

Cards.

Anycard you can imagine basically, so bare with me and try to understand that i don't play them nemore. Pokemon cards and Yu-Gi-Oh cards (both of which i have less then originally planned because i gave a lot away). and bam, motherload, Magic cards. 

I probably accumulated, don't laugh, around $500 worth of cards originally (value of cards might be higher or lower then expected), and damn, i really don't wanna throw them away. It feels like this whole process of cleaning and throwing away stuff is cleaning away what little past i remember of myself.

A person recently asked me to talk to them about my past. And it was...so hard. I couldn't think of any interest or hobbies or anything related to my past, and the main reason is probably because i do throw away EVERYTHING from my past.

From simple birthday cards, to unusable gadgets. I (and probably a lot of other people) probably just thought that by throwing these stuff away, we are moving on with our lives to newer, fresher things, and also, not only to unclutter the physical aspects of our lives, but also the mind. 

But did anyone really know that by throw away things that we deem worthless in the present, what effect it'll have on us trying to remember the past?

I recently said in the last post that the past is what makes us who we are in the present, but if we had a constant renewal of our lives, is it possible for our present status to be completely irrelevant to our past?

Because of my fear that this is true, i'm going to keep some of these worthless cards. Maybe they're useless now, but whenever i need to slow down and just mull on the past. I can just pick up some of these cards and think about all the years I've wasted (but still had fun) playing with pieces of paper.

And i think everyone else should really think twice before throwing something out that you have some past with. You never know when you might wanna slow down,  pick up something from ur past, and just fall under nostalgia.

-Canon Ma

Hey guys, sorry i wasn't able to post anything for sooo long. I recently...broke my camera.. kind of. It still can take photographs and everything, but there is a problem with it that makes me look it at times and sigh a bit. It's THAT depressing. I should be able to post things...but...I don't know if it'll be daily for awhile.