What the future brings.

You never really know what you're gonna get. You plan everything out but things are going to fall out of place. You think this one step will get your one step closer but it slips from your fingers, it slips from your grasp. 

So how do you react? 

Some people can't comprehend just what happened. They stay still and don't change a thing, grieving for what might seem too long to normal people, and they shut down a lot of exits that could save them.

And others tend to brush it off in a second. They look for other opportunities and take little consideration of what mistake they might have just made. They stay still and don't change a thing, thinking that they were originally right, so their ignorance ends their growth.

I always think the extremes of any situation is never the answer. Only because it's not plausible (although i could be wrong, feel free to discuss). A healthy dose of grieving and recollection of what just happens helps you learn what mistakes you might have made along the road you've taken, and growing from it to continue on.

Why am I talking about this? 

I've recently realized that being a photographer as an actual job is actually possible. I'm being told all over the place that making money from photographing events, people, and especially weddings, can actually bring in a living.

So it definitely sucks how I wasn't able to realize this my love for photographer earlier. Now i'm down this awkward path that has an unseen ending. And as much as i love being surprised by what the future brings, I'd like to at least know that i'm going to love what I'll do in the future.

And now it's too late to change. If i'm gonna go along with the original blueprints, It's gonna be another 6/7 years before I can enter a normal art school to try to get a bachelor (or whatever you get in arts, someone educate me on this, i don't want to offend) for photography.

And what really sucks is that someone actually came up to me recently and said. "Wow, you're a photographer? I just got married, I should have asked you to take photos for it"

Thanks life, thanks for kicking me in the face.

And now?

I only hope my interest for photography somehow dies down during the school year. As negative as it sounds, I'll just have to put away what I love aside as a hobby, and not as a profession. I don't need to stray off an already delicate path.

How Depressing...